Recently I had an Ah Ha moment! You know one of those moments when a light bulb goes off in your head and for an instant everything seems clear and suddenly you know exactly the direction to head in. I suddenly realized a couple significant things. I realized that I needed to stop asking those questions previously mentioned and start asking God "What are you trying to teach me through my child?" Wow! How that changed my outlook. There is a reason why I was given the opportunity to be Jack's mother and to be Lucas' mother, I do not believe that it was by accident and I believe this life is training for the next life so what am I supposed to learn?
After my new outlook I knew that I needed to alter some priorities in my life and live through the lens of discovering what I need to learn. It has made an immense difference. I have been filled with greater patience, peace and joy. It is amazing how life improves when we alter our perspective and attitude toward it.