Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Night Time Thoughts

It is 1:52am. Finally calmed Lucas down. It took a drink, snuggles, screaming, more snuggles, a little tune from Eva Cassidy and his blanket and now that he is asleep I am awake. Typical. I know I need my sleep and will be kicking myself tomorrow but I have some thoughts that just need to live in cyber space:

I am dreamer. I love to dream about being an all together mother who is organized and is a better at loading the dishwasher than my hubby. I dream about being an awesome photographer with a thriving business. I dream about being a great teacher to my children. I dream about running a mile in under 8 minutes. I dream about taking challenging dance technique classes that will awaken my body and let it remember its potential. I dream about visiting, emailing and calling all the people I keep thinking about. I dream about being super duper creative in my home. I dream about being an awesome coupon lady. I dream about exploring the world and meeting people from everywhere. I dream about going on a safari.

I love to dream but I think sometimes dreams can hold you back from being present. Sometimes I am lost in what seems like the Bermuda triangle of thoughts and they hold me there not allowing me to live fully in the moment. I share this because as great as dreams can be like the one I had when I was 6 years old to go to BYU to dance and like the dream of getting married in the temple to an amazing guy some dreams can just be counter-productive. So the next time I find myself drifting in and out of my day dreams I hope to remember that although dreams are great I actually have a lot going on RIGHT now, a lot of awesome stuff that I should embrace.

Perhaps if each time I found myself day dreaming I thought of five different things that I currently have going for me I might just be evermore present in my everyday moments.

1: I love to workout! This makes it easy to be healthy and happy
2: I highlighted my hair and it was so liberating; I LOVE it.
3: I take great photos and they make me indescribably happy to look at and know that I captured that moments
4: I have an amazing man sleeping on the other side of my bed; a man who would do anything for me and a man who makes me feel so beautiful and confident.
5: I get to laugh multiple times daily because of my children's personality and characters.

There is a time to dream and a time to embrace the present. Today I choose the later.

Sunday, June 26, 2011



With only just over a week to go until this big guy has lived for 365 days he finally decides it is time to crawl. It is a slow crawl but none the less the kid crawls. I thought he would never move. I had visions of having a two year old that sat there perched on rolls of fat but he proved me wrong. He just has one speed of crawling mastered right now and that is slow and steady.

I stopped nursing him about two weeks ago; he was so depressed. I told him life goes on and it was about that time that he decided to entertain crawling.

His smile is awesome. I just love his chunky cheeks, crinkled-up nose and piercing eyes; it all makes a perfect smile!

Still only 2 teeth.


Saturday, June 25, 2011



in parenthood is the hardest thing EVER! I am a big believer is being consistent but BOY is it hard. We have rules in our home such as no TV until after lunch, nothing sugary until after 10am, eat your dinner without screaming these are just a few that Jack challenges on a daily basis. Then there is sharing and being kind, saying sorry, please and thank-you, tidying up etc...I am pretty good at sticking to my guns but every now and then I am sick of the constant battle and I just say leg go of everything and let JAck has his way. Then I find Jack his way more determined to get his way next time because he won a battle.

Being consistent is SO exhausting. What are your tips for being consistent without going crazy?


Friday, June 24, 2011

Ben Is LOVED by many...

Ben Is LOVED by many...


The things Mothers talk about

The things Mothers talk about

As a teenager I thought kids were funny but to be honest the conversations mothers had about there adorable kids were plain boring. I remember listening to mothers talk about how cute their little one is or how hilarious they are thinking really? Can I vomit? You need to get out more.

And now I am that mother talking about her kids practically 24/7. Yes. I find them hilarious. I mean when Jack and his buddy are standing shivering with loaded water guns waiting for passing cars to squirt I silently giggled while trying (not very hard) to stop them. And yes, it is hilarious to me when Jack has been a stinker to our dog and she steals something from him or when at a Memorial Breakfast he spills his Orange juice and freaks out and responds to a sweet lady who said "your be alright" with "I AM NOT ALIGHT!"

Of course I find them cute, really cute. And I understand my vision is blurred because I helped create them but boy are they candy to my eyes. Lucas' smile makes me smile and say on repeat like a broken record "you are so cute" in a very annoying and high pitched voice. And when Jack holds my face and looks into my eyes and says "I love you mom" I do think he is extremely perfect for a moment even if the next thing he says is "can I have a Popsicle?"

So if you spend any time with me you will hear about how cute my kids are, how hilarious they are, how they drive me crazy, how I wish Jack could wipe his bottom without making a mess, how Lucas is crawling, how Jack has sticky snot, how Lucas has chunky thighs, how I am exhausted with the constant cleaning, how I wish I had more time to do everything and how being a mother can be awful and wonderful all in the same sentence. Basically, I talk a lot about my kids call it boring, self indulged or interesting but that is what I talk about

Thursday, June 23, 2011

My little Sister came to Visit...

My little Sister came to Visit...

We had a blast!

Went swimming, wore face masks, watched movies, she highlighted my hair, danced, made a fathers day video, went to a theme park and rode the tea cup one too many times, rode the train feeling delirious, tried to get her to eat Sushi, BBQ food, photo shoot, pillow screaming and laughing uncontrollably while snorting (Beth snorts incredibly loud).

The "DUCK" face was frequently present (when my sister laughs her face changes into a duck; it is terrifying and hilarious at the same time, it could be in a horror movie).

I can't believe that my sister is 17! Freaky. She is a funny lass and I had a lovely time with her. When I was growing up my dad always told me I was his princess and Beth was his FITW (favorite in the world) this made me mad so to calm my spirits he told me I was more beautiful ... this is no longer true my sister is a stunner.

from our Photo shoot see more here

Pictures taken by Jack

Guess how many years are between us?


Thursday, June 16, 2011

Breckenridge without Kids!

Breckenridge without Kids!

Ben and I took our first getaway that lasted more than 24 hours without our children...it was heavenly. I love my children more than anything but my batteries were running REALLY low and needed some major recharging. Thanks to Ben's awesome bargaining skills we scored mega cheap hotel rooms and thanks to our friends for being amazing people and watching our kiddos we were able to have a great weekend together.

My highlights were:

Hiking; it was super steep and made my heart pound

Pretending I was Martha Graham on top of the mountain

Hot tubing


Sleeping in


Finding Awesome sunglasses for Ben and Jack

Word Of Advice to first time mothers: Take vacations with your spouce...I can not believe Ben and I have never done this before. It has taken me 4 years to realize this!!!

Friday, June 3, 2011



Ever since sickness has left our house life has been SO much brighter.

Jack scored big time at his birthday and got a slip and slide and we have been slipping and sliding. The weather has been glorious the last few days so we have been out enjoying it.

I really love Summer! Although I don't love been so very pasty white and turning pink at the thought of going outside without 50 SPF sunscreen. I also don't love being loved by every mosquito on the planet but ALAS I do love summer.

We have already had a party, BBQ, pool time x 2 and of course slip and slide extravaganza. Yay for more summer activities.

Enjoy some shots from the last week:

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