Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Yoga is heaven sent

The other day my emotions were running away with me. I was snappy, quick to anger, easy to frustrate I needed me time I needed yoga. I grabbed my mat and told Ben I would be gone for an hour. I hopped in the car and drove to the local school park found a spot under a tree and unrolled my mat. 

The next hour was pure magic. I felt so renewed. I was bursting with light, energy and beauty. I felt SO good. I am pretty sure I was surrounded by angles as I practiced yoga. 

On that sunny and hot day yoga was heaven sent and brought me closer to my God. 

Monday, June 29, 2015

Lucas finishes Soccer

Lucas is sweet, 
has a giant squishy heart, 
is hilarious, 


Lucas is not competitive. 

He loved soccer season or at least he said he did. He talked about playing and practicing soccer constantly but when it came to game days I think he was most excited about the end when he gets to check out the awesome snack.  On our day to provide the snack he spent days planning and deciding what snacks his teams mates would enjoy. It was simply a joy to watch him think about his little buddies with such abounding love. 

Most game days as the Carney family we were encouraging Lucas to follow the ball, get closer, kick the ball and run, run run! 

Most of the time Lucas pulled his shirt up, trailed behind, picked some grass, chatted with a fellow team mate, flirted with the girls and watched the ball as it rolled practically over his toes. 

But it was always a great time full of smiles from everyone. 

It has been such a contrasting experience watching Lucas play team sports in comparison to his extraordinary competitive brother. I am so thankful to call both of them mine!

Sunday, June 28, 2015

God has to be REAL!

The other day Jack and I were enjoying an evening walk. The sun was setting forming a golden hue across the back bone of mountains. Jack was chatting my ear off about how amazing humming birds were. How their wings move in a figure 8 so they can hover and how their beak is specifically designed to fit into the flowers they drink from to get nectar. His description was littered with so many details my jaw just lay open in wonder of this awesome kid of mine. 

Once he finally paused to take a breath I said "well that's proof that God exists!" Jack turned and looked with an inquisitive eye and asked "what do you mean?" 
"well how could a humming bird have so many intricate details that work perfectly in harmony with it's surroundings and are essential to it's survival without a creator? Without God?"

Jack's mind and heart seemed to bounce alive with that thought and stated to reel off many examples of God's existence. We continued to chat with zest and joy as our walk continued. Our hearts felt full and we were radiant with God's light from testifying of His existence as the Almighty creator of all things. 

This moment with my wonderful Jack was a gift 
I shall never forget the way I felt as I watched and felt his heart open and expand in the wonders of his Heaven Father. 
I pray I will have many more moments like these that I can collect and treasure. 


Friday, June 26, 2015

Jack's decision to be baptized

Our bishop at church had asked Jack if he would join him in his office to discuss baptism. I found myself breathing shallow as months earlier Jack had shared his concerns about baptism and that he wasn't 100% sure he wanted to be baptized. I decided in that moment back then that this was Jack's choice and I needed to back off with all my "teaching moments" about baptism and choosing the right. 

It is a hard line to walk being a parent. You feel so strongly the responsibility to teach your children true principles but need to give them space for growth, learn for themselves and govern their own choices; this is a hard lesson for me to learn and embrace.

Jack looked at our kind bishop and said without skipping a beat "sure!" "Do you want your mom to come?" Bishop asked. "Yes I do!" was Jack's reply.

I stood up and followed Jack and bishop into the office feeling the magnitude of this privileged. I was amazed at Jack's maturity and ability to answer questions and express himself during this brief interview. He was totally calm and happy. He wanted to be baptized!

Right then I watched Jack plan out his baptism with bishop; it's amazing what space and love will do to the human heart. 

Two weeks later we had a house filled with people we LOVE so dearly to celebrate Jack's baptism. 

Jack's baptism was beautiful. I felt encompassed with love; a type of love I had not experienced prior to that day. I felt my heart grow, truly it grew! After two beautiful dynamic talks Jack followed Ben to the font. I stood at the side of the font with a towel in hand and watched. I wanted to be as close as possible. Watching from the side I felt my eyes swell with tears and I couldn't possibly have smiled wider. 

As I wrapped Jack in a warm dry towel we walked into the changing room. The little 70's style changing room with tiled walls was bursting with light and joy. Jack shivered and giggled "I has no idea that would be so fun!" "How do you feel?" Ben asked, "so good" Jack replied as a smile stretched across his cute face.  

With dry clothes on and freshly combed hair Jack sat on a chair surrounded by worthy priesthood holders who love him dearly and received the gift of the Holy Ghost. I was most excited for this part. The gift of the holy ghost is hands down the best gift I have ever received and while I know Jack may not know the magnitude of this gift from his Heavenly Father for some time I have faith that that gift will bless him tremendously. 

While Ben exercised the priesthood and gave Jack the precious gift and bestowed a beautiful blessing on him my thoughts were drawn to my father-in-law who passed away last July. I thought of how happy he would be for Jack, how he would want to congratulate and hug him after and testify of the truth of the gospel of Jesus Christ. And I thought how Jack would love all of that.  Heaven felt very close in that moment...

We sang "We'll bring the wold His truth" as our last song of the baptism. I was overcome with emotion as I looked at my wonderful, bright, brilliant and darling Jack and hoped that I could be the goodly parent God intends me to be. I thought that Jack's decision to be baptized entitles him to be enlisted in the army of God's discipleship. I was particularly touched by the following verse:

We have been saved for these latter days
To build the kingdom in righteous ways.
We hear the words our prophet declares:
"Let each who's worthy go forth and share."

I am grateful my Heavenly Father saved Jack for this time and sent him into our family. My love for him keeps growing and deepening. 

After we went out to get pizza and it was awesome!


Thursday, June 25, 2015

Slow Summer

Normally my summers are packed with so much stuff; co-running a music and dance youth program for 7 weeks, morning group exercise classes, many photography sessions, adventuring with my boys and maybe some cleaning. 

This year I am adventuring with boys, cleaning my home, having mornings structured with reading and music practice (not always welcomed by the participants...) swim lessons, soccer practice, playing around the yard and being bored.

I am convinced that being bored is really important for kids. It drives me CRAZY to hear "I'm bored! What can I do?" But the times I have been persistent in giving them the space to feel it out creative play always occurs and it goes on for a good amount of time. That's when I find myself smiling and giving myself a little pat on the back for not caving into the easy options of entertainment. 

I have been amazed at how the summer hasn't been as daunting as I initially thought it would be. I thought without all my commitments I would really go crazy with the boys and that has not been the reality. Granted yes, there are times that the boys get intense emotions, argue and aggravate each-other BUT there have been many times that are enjoyable and memorable for all the right reasons. 

Without my personal agenda and ego constantly calling for my attention I have found myself more capable to respond with love and patience or see that I need a break to re-group. This has been really helpful for creating the atmosphere needed in our home to cultivate positive growth. 

Today right now I am grateful for the space I am experiencing due to the slow summer schedule. 

The other day the boys and I were having one of those mornings where emotions got the best of us and I knew we need a change of environment to help us reset of attitudes. We went hiking and it was fantastic! I am so thankful for the joy nature brings to my family. We discovered a lake and played in it. Lucas took his pants and underwear off and started wading instantly... 



Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Summer lately

The summer started off with swim lessons and they went so great!
Jack really propelled in his ability and enjoyment of swimming which was a relief as its been a rough journey, you can read about that over here.

By coincidence Lucas lucked out and ended up having two of his friends from church in his class. I had a delightful time chatting with remarkable women while watching these lads swim.

Look how cute they are after one of the not so hot days of swim lessons. A few of the days they swam in rain...

Many days we have found ourselves playing outside in our yard. The boys play on scooters, play with ball or some creative game while I do yoga. I love it when this happens.

We have been going to the local pool in our neighborhood for family night and inviting other families. It has been such fun! 

Here is a fun video of one of our evenings making memories! 

On a lovely Monday we joined our friends and visited Hudson Gardens. The weather was so summery, the air was warm and full of wonder and I loved being with people I love. 

One day we went to the lake close by and had a perfect time. Very rarely does an adventure of ours happen without a melt down or some sort of complication to add a dose of drama but this one was perfect!

We also have been visiting a awesome splash park! Lots of water squirt fights and laughter. 

Some days are busy with adventure, some busy with friends and play dates, others busy with house work and some we just do nothing but most days we do something to strengthen our relationships!

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